My Dream, a bad One - Episode 4

I lay awake in my bed one Sunday afternoon. I kept on having recurring thoughts of her. I guess I was missing her very badly. But was I acting to immaturely always wanting to talk with her? Always wanting her! I know I cannot meet her for a year now, I even don't know if I will be with her forever, but the attachment with her has become so strong that I it hurts now.

While I was at this thought, instances from my past came alive. I remembered the time I first fell in love. Yes that was the time when I first lost my love. And therefore I guess I become restless in relationships.

While I was at it, someone called me up....

I didn't know but had I slept off? What happened? I wasn't sure what happened after the call was coming. I went to have some cold water and returned to check my cellphone. I found there was a call for me from London. Had she called? Then why did I faint?

My friend Rohit called me up then,

"Hey dude, there was a bomb explosion at Oxford University, did you find out if she was allright?"

And then it came to me, the call was from her guide,

"I am sorry to inform you that there was an explosion in the appartments where she was staying, she is missing, you were written as the emergency contact..."

I fainted again!

My Bad after a few Days - Episode 3

"Hello"

"What, it seemed you'd forgotten me!"

"Relax... How can I? My dear I had to do lots of things to settle down, and moreover it takes 2 days to get the cellphone."

"Anyways you hang up the phone, we can vocie chat on net! Save you a lot of cash no?"

"Ok will do so, but not now after an hour."

Hmmm, so she has called. Why the hell was I thinking that she wouldn't. Anyways as I had a deadline to meet, I got engrossed in my work.

It was only two hours back that I had given my long distance girlfriend time for voice chat, and I had missed it by an hour. Oh man! I tried to log in and found her offline messages that she waited and she waited and then she lost her patience. Oops! My bad!

The next week was busier for me than before. And whenever I had the free time I only called her up, but she never picked up my calls. I was getting restless regarding work as well as her. I could lose my job but not her. One day I suddenly realised that I literally am staying at my office, sleeping, drinking and sometimes even bathing here!

That is the time I realised whenever I had made calls, it was late night for her. But, she could leave messages, she could have called back. But no she didn't. After a week had passed I decided to call her university and could connect to her guide.

"O She's caught the flu I guess, hasn't reported since a week. Her Indian friend is taking care surely.."

"If tomorrow never comes...." shouted Ronan Keating as I had kept down the phone.

That was the day I really cried after many years. I felt what she might have felt the day she was leaving and had cried! I never knew why a person cries, but today it has come to me only to make me realise it seems...

My Night after The Proposal - Episode 2

"Sorry. I am not prepared for marriage yet! And I guess I should leave now, I have a flight to catch!"

Right. So first when I wasn't ready for it, I proposed, and then I got turned down. And I don't know what kind of relationship I will have with her.

"Aisa to kam hi hota hai woh bhi ho tanhaiiii bhi!"

Yes the song playing in the background did represent my situation right now!

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"Hello, see don't ask again, I will go and finish my studies, will talk on phone and all, and next year we decide!"

"Are you breaking up with me?"

"You stupid. You don't know anything, this is not a breakup. Chal bye for now, take care"

"Do do shaqalein dikhti hai, is behke se aaaine mein, Mere saath chala aaaya hai aapka ek saudaai bhi"

Right now I don't what the song means. Now I really wanted her to say yes for the proposal and then tell her that I am not prepared for it yet. Why didn't it happen like that? And why do I want such a thing. Maybe, it will make me care free that yeah she wont go anywhere leaving me!

But, why do I want to be? Do I not trust her anyways? I do, but you never know what happens. My trust has been broken a number of times now.

And I don't know why I think I should press my blue shirt. Can wear it to work again. It still looks good. Says who that it is dirty!

I don't know when, but I had slept off and woke up due to a call early morning.

"Hi, dear, just wanted to say will miss you!"

Hmmm, gave me a sense of relief.

I was feeling good that atleast she thinks about me... Suddenly another phonecall came....

Her roomate had called up :
"Stupid, did you stop her, told her not to go?"

"No, why would I say that"

"Arrreeee. She cried all night, she said if you once tell her not to go then she will not!"

Uh, clearly I don't understand girls it seems.

My Date with the girl going Far Away - Episode 1

"Kyu aajkal neend kam khwaaba zyada hai...."

"Why did you pick up the phone so late?"

"Oh my new ringtone is so sexy - you've heard the latest song from Woh Lamhe, that one!"

"You idiot, for that song you will put me on hold!!!"

"Dearie, don't get angry.. let's meet at the Barton Center."

The blue shirt with those self-design checks looks so great. I guess I should wear this one. Ah my new Nokia 3250's voice quality is awesome when I am playing my favoutite songs on it. It is really a great Nokia model, ideal for "Muzik" lovers. Umm which song should I put, let us see..

"Oh its Carnival..."

Umm have listened to this one umpteen times, let's try the woh lamhe one:

"Kal ka fakeer aaj Dil shehzaad hai...."

Great, this will surely refresh me. So where was I, the problem which I am facing right now is that the girl with whom I have been so close for a long long time is now going away. Right she won't be there from tomorrow. Means she will be on the phone, on SMS, on internet and whatever new technologies come up in this world. But not in her physcial presence. Right that is not a big problem right now, as I don't know what I will fill when she is not here. The problem is what and how am I going to say this to her.

One never realises what one might feel later and how to express it. Anyways I will have to iron that pretty shirt before I take off.

Right, now everything is in order! My bike is getting too old now, I guess I should move on to owning a car. But this traffic, god I can't wait so long, should reach before she reaches.

There I see the pretty little coffee shop and thankfully I can't see her. And why is that? I am clearly late by 5 minutes. Right my girlfriend is a time-freak! So where is she today. Of course, she's taking coffee and I just hope she's having cold coffee, it won't hurt me so much! Oh no, it is hot. Run!

"Hey pretty lady, you know a hot coffee when thrown on someone might lead to permanent burn marks!"

"Shut up, I am not angry, let it be, it only shows how much you will miss me when I am gone"

Aaaargh, I cannot express my feelings. What should I tell her now?

"Miss you baby? Why will I do so, you stay in my heart"

Wink wink. Yippie, this dialogue was useful, good I see some romantic movies sometimes!

"Dont try to mollify me with those stupid dialogues of yours. And when will you learn to iron the shirt of yours. And dear you are wearing this shirt for the tenth time I guess! You don't know how to date a girl!"

"Yes I guess I don't because I don't need a girlfriend, I need a wife, will you marry me?"

Whistle whistle, clap clap!

NOOOOOOOOOOOO. What did I just say? Am I allright?

About Me

A race towards my life to start. A race towards the life to end. I compete in this regatta as a lone boat, you can join the race or forever bury your face!

Do have a dekko:
http://adiregatta.blogspot.com/


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My Genre - Human
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"Humans are earthbound by nature not by the law of gravity."

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My Religion - A Clandestine Divinity
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"In the moist air of July, under the Rainbow cladded sun,
A bohemian soul is dry, abiding no Religion,
The divinity begins to cry, sopping his cremains,
His own creation gone dry, is dampening by ablutions."

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My Profession - Life Lensman
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Connoisseur of lifestyles....
Social Engineer....
Manager of thoughts....

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Just when I thought I knew all of Life's answers.........They changed all the questions.
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Now I guess it is time to relax, take a little break from scrapping....


Reflecting on the time when scraps would pour in -- today I have just reached 10.5k from 10k in a long time -- kaha gaye wo velle din!

Nostalgia

Bangalore holds for me very refreshing memories of my life. A few months back when I was here, I'd not known that I will be come back and stay here for a longer period. The fact that for a very few days I was here, I'd seen the whole of Bangalore, makes me lazy to go out anywhere these days. Plus, the nostalgia which sets in and reminds me of the person I miss!

The smell of a lovely coffee at Cafe Coffe Day, the late nights at Barista@Barton Center, the fresh sense of youth at the Brigade Road, the shelter from the rain at the Forum Mall and the cool breeze every evening are just some of the things which make me realise that there is something missing in my life.

It had to be, I knew that I had to be far away, but it really hurts when someone's gone and you are left alone at the same place. The things one enjoys here are the things that saddens me sometimes, for all those moments I had enjoyed!